So, I've just finished my sprint 1, which consisted of 2 weeks focusing on my mental motivation, self beliefs, and stopping seeing myself as somebody who gives up etc..
I think that I am now convinced I can do this, without quitting once the boredom sets in. there is no reason for boredom to set in as I will keep varying my diet, trying new recipes etc. And let's face it, staying off sugar is reallly reducing cravings completely. weirdly I had a real sugar craving yesterday, I think it was to do with tiredness so I simply left the kitchen and did something completely different, such as tidying up in the house or something to get my mind off eating. and it worked!
Now, about the no-wine rule, I must say I did not follow it on Saturday evening after the school fete. We were invited to a BBQ, I was quite tired from a day on my feet since 8am so I decided that, as I'm not an alcoholic, I can allow myself one evening off, knowing it would be very easy to stay off again until the 6th July. I felt a bit hungover yesterday but not sure if it was really that, or my cold starting to bother me. I'm off sick today because of my cold. I woke up with a blocked nose, a headache, a sore throat this morning so decided I'd better get better in 1 day rather than feeling miserable in the office and not be productive at all..
The problem is I feel very guilty for it, I don't know what it is, I am hating being so totally useless, I can't help feeling guilty for being in bed while everybody else is working. It must be because I'm not exactly on my death bed.. aarrhh! Stupid guilt.
Other things are bothering me, I have not heard from my parents since the floods in Calgary so I'm wondering how they are, my brother is also not responding to my calls and I have been told he's a bit depressed at the moment. So, all the people I love around me are not doing great, which I am feeling too...
Not sure how to go about this, I guess I have to be patient and trust that this will pass and get better.
About my sprint 1: I have just spent 2 weeks gorging myself on motivational and inspiring images of weight loss, fitness, quotes etc...
some of my favourites are: Sweat is fat crying - Haha!!; Do not reward yourself with food. you're not a dog. how brilliant is that!!
What do you want? A donut or a firm butt?
It's called a workout because it requires effort. without work it is just an easy out
This kind of message really reminds me what I am doing this for, and that if I don';t give up I will get there.
Even last week I started wearing clothes I had not worn yet: my white trousers. It was so exhilarating to wear them (size 14, bought in winter before I could wear them) and I surprised myself with a random thought: I told myself "I will miss this exhilarating feeling of losing weight and getting fit when I'm at my goal". So, that's one of the tihngs that has been stopping me then!?! that was quite a revelation and I think it will help me greatly as I will simply need to give myself new goals each time I reach a nice stage, ie wearing sleeveless tops, or doing something amazing at sports such as doing a handball match full length without feeling dead at the end..
Today is the beginning of sprint 2 and I'm going to make it my arms sprint: I will do an arm workout every day, even if it is only 5 minutes. I have bought a bingo wing blaster DVD, which is quite good, so I can mix up the workouts in the next 2 weeks.
After that it will be our holidays and then my French crew coming to London so I could base my sprint around how I deal with this kind of challenge.
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